About me

About my ThetaHealing journey

 

I didn’t know anything about ThetaHealing® before I had my first session. I was suffering from severe postpartum depression. After I had my daughter, I watched that informative video in the hospital how to recognize PPD. And I became afraid I would get it. And I did. Then I feared I would go crazy. Slowly, I was going there too. My fear was irrational but I didn’t know how to deal with it. I was so afraid of everything that I could barely wash the dishes. That feeling that somebody was behind me was devastating. I only felt safe if I sat on the couch with my back against the wall so nobody could be behind. I tried to meditate, but how can one meditate if one is scared to close their eyes? I would just be more anxious. But my fear didn’t start there.

Before I had my daughter, I had panic attacks. My very first panic attack occurred when I was 21 years old. It happened on the street while I was waiting for a friend to come back. I thought I was dying or, in the best case, having a heart attack. A couple of years after that I realized it was a panic attack. At that time in my country, this felt like an enormous taboo subject. You know when you tell this to somebody and they take that step back? It felt discouraging and I was closing myself to my friends. I would rather tell them irrelevant stories than my actual problem.

“If you want the moon, do not hide from the night. If you want a rose, do not run from the thorns. If you want love, do not hide from yourself.”
— Rumi

To be honest, I don’t remember one moment in my life I didn’t feel afraid.

So how did I find ThetaHealing®?

I was afraid to look for a psychiatrist, and I already didn’t have a good experience with them. I knew it had to be something that could instantly help me. A friend of mine recommended a ThetaHealer and we started sessions on Skype. I didn’t even want to know what this technique was. I just felt it was the right thing to do.

After my first session, I woke up in the middle of the night with a panic attack. My initial thought was: “I ruined myself and there is no turning back.” Luckily, I realized it was my ego trying to stay in its safe zone. “What is she doing? I don’t know this feeling!!! Let’s go back to being afraid.” No, my dear, we are over with it.

Over the following couple of days, I felt I could actually breathe without heaviness in my chest. I followed how I felt and everything that came on the surface I addressed over the next sessions. After I released my major fears, I was able to open up myself toward the spiritual world I was so afraid of. And of course, I was when I was prosecuted in one of my lives for being a lightworker.

Little by little, I began to feel freer. And now, ThetaHealing has completely changed my life. It is my highest calling now to help other people feel free and enjoy their lives to the fullest.