I didn’t know anything about ThetaHealing® before I had my first session. I was suffering from severe postpartum depression. After I had my daughter, I watched that informative video in the hospital how to recognize PPD. And I became afraid I would get it. And I did. Then I feared I would go crazy. Slowly, I was going there too. My fear was irrational but I didn’t know how to deal with it. I was so afraid of everything that I could barely wash the dishes. That feeling that somebody was behind me was devastating. I only felt safe if I sat on the couch with my back against the wall so nobody could be behind. I tried to meditate, but how can one meditate if one is scared to close their eyes? I would just be more anxious. But my fear didn’t start there.
Before I had my daughter, I had panic attacks. My very first panic attack occurred when I was 21 years old. It happened on the street while I was waiting for a friend to come back. I thought I was dying or, in the best case, having a heart attack. A couple of years after that I realized it was a panic attack. At that time in my country, this felt like an enormous taboo subject. You know when you tell this to somebody and they take that step back? It felt discouraging and I was closing myself to my friends. I would rather tell them irrelevant stories than my actual problem.
“If you want the moon, do not hide from the night. If you want a rose, do not run from the thorns. If you want love, do not hide from yourself.”
— Rumi
To be honest, I don’t remember one moment in my life I didn’t feel afraid.
So how did I find ThetaHealing®? A friend of mine, a very good friend, posted something on Facebook one day. It was a video from a motivational speaker from Croatia. I thought if she posted that she must have been exploring different things and she probably became more open to natural or spiritual ways of healing. I was looking for natural healing because for one, I didn’t trust therapists and second, I was afraid if I shared my fears and problems they would take away my baby. So I texted my friend who lives in Serbia where I am originally from and explained what was happening to me. She suggested a solution. She introduced me to a ThetaHealer® from Serbia and we started sessions on Skype.
Little by little, I began to feel freer. And now, ThetaHealing has completely changed my life. It is my highest calling now to help other people feel free and enjoy their lives to the fullest.